the object of fides|ratio

We are in an 'absurd' situation; we are alive & will die, nothing has any purpose, nothing has any meaning, and yet we were lucky enough to evolve into a species who can reflect on this. We can understand that we're probably determined in a great parade of cause and effect to either choose to commit suicide or to not ever consider suicide as an option. We join with a mass of people to become the mass and thus become nothing, throwing away our reason and reflection so that we don't have to live being constantly aware of our loathed situation. Our scientists and philosophers decide that reason is the king of our being, that anything which can't be reasoned is false, and though reason has developed through the same irrational process as any other part of us, it is the arbiter of truth because it is the only part of us that needs truth to survive. God cannot satisfy reason's rules, so he doesn't exist.

However, to be human is to be limited. Limit seems to be an essential element of being human which humans themselves cannot reconcile themselves with. There is no infinite capacity for anything; not love, not faith, not appetite, not knowledge, not anything. Yet, when we speak about reason, we always want to elevate it beyond this. If reason cannot uphold something, that something is not true; truth is not outside the bounds of reason.

How, over the years, has reason covertly eluded its rank among the rest of human capacities? How do we suppose that reason has no limit in its capacity for understanding? How do we even suppose that reason has a capacity for any understanding? We can't prove thus, because we'd be using reason to do it. Reason cannot satisfy reason's own rules.

What reason has not the capacity for is the object of faith. Reason itself is an object of faith.