Saturday, January 28, 2006

Ohh

I'm lying in bed, it's 3 in the morning, and it hits me: I'M PART OF THE "THEY"!! I act in accordance to what OTHER PEOPLE think is the character of Jon!
I rarely say things like "I love you" to my parents. I'd assume that i'm not the type of person that does, and when I do, I feel wierd. And it's not because it IS out of my character, but because it's out of what even my parents and my brothers and sister and every one else think is my character. I'm actually afraid that they'll think "That is not like Jon to say that" and so MAYBE IT'S NOT LIKE JON TO SAY IT!

I don't act in conflict with what people expect of me. Except for this; this is not me. I don't journal, and I don't journal personal revelations at 3 in the morning.

And I know what brought this about. The fact that I have to journal. I was thinking in bed about what kinds of things I should put in my journal, considering it is recommended to have pictures or poems or other stuff . And to those things I said, "I'm in an existentialist class, where the point of existentialism is to act according to the directives that matter most to me, and yet I feel like I have to go out of my character and put these poems and junk and that is not ME."

And then "ME" was torn apart into "other people's perceptions of me" and now this. This is the first step into myself.

Friday, January 27, 2006

Satre & Determinism

Sartre was atheist, but was strongly against determinism; an argument of his against the existence of God was that God's existence is incompatible with human freedom. I have been wondering about whether it is possible to be an atheist and not to be a determinist, so I have been doing some reading lately on determinism vs. free will and there is just a boundless selection of theories and ideas to think through. However, from what I've read, I would mostly consider myself to be a libertarian, and if I understand it correctly libertarianism is the view that humans are unmoved movers; we can will to do event A (leave a room), refrain from willing to do event A, or will to do event B, without anything being different inside or outside of our being; "[We are] the absolute originator[s] of [our] own actions"(1). This position is in contrast to various other views, such as hard/soft determinism and hard/soft compatibilism, all of which, I would find no surprise, probably can be separated into even more categories.

So Sartre, being an atheist, would not believe in any type of "super"nature, which could be described as anything acting outside of what C.S. Lewis calls the "Total System" of events, or "The Whole Show"(2). Every event in nature is caused, and our acts of thinking, being events, would be caused by the previous effect of a cause, which is the effect of the cause before it, and this would span out from the beginning to the end of time. So in this sense, without the human as a first mover of his thoughts, our thoughts and actions are pretty much determined. Now from what I've read, a compatibilist will agree to this, yet still say that humans can have freedom of the will. Our desires may be determined, but we are free to will whatever we desire. To be honest I'm not sure if an atheist can hold this position because there is really no explanation as to why our desires are determined but not our willing to do them (is "willing to do" something an "act"?).

I'm willing to think, then, that Sartre was not a libertarian, and possibly was more on the compatibilist side, but with my little knowledge of Sartre and the theories of freedom he could be in a hundred different positions. I just think that if Sartre was a naturalist, and if naturalism (meaning that "every finite thing or event must be (in principle) explicable in terms of the Total System"(3)) leaves no room for free will, then his "existence precedes essence" dictum, which Cooper sums up with "Existence now precedes essence in that how a person is at a given time results from the free decisions he has made," seems to be not as "uplifting" as it's described (4). Our essence would be just as determined as our existence is. Cooper also brings up the point that Sartre was complaining about the "pervasive tendency to employ terms...for labelling and pigeon-holing people [and] the tendency to suppose that once [a person] has been classified...we have 'summed him up'" (5). He goes on to say that we can rise above what we've been defined as and "direct how [we] shall become." This could be possible in certain cases (assuming we have free will), but one thing that really defines all humans is that we're all "sinners", and if we don't want to use religious language here, instead of saying "sinners" we could say that there is a standard that we all know is there throughout our whole lives that we cannot live up to. Everyone will lie knowing full well that it's wrong, and they will not want to lie at that instant but do it anyways because that is our nature, a thing that we cannot rid ourselves of. Maybe we will quit lying, but it comes up in other scenarios; adultery, stealing, cheating, gossiping, etc. It almost seems that it is an essence of ours that in these scenarios our reason will fight our passion till the end, and never conquer it.

(1). J.P. Moreland and William Lane Craig, "Philosophical Foundations for a Christian Worldview," 270.
(2). C.S. Lewis, "Miracles," 17.
(3). Ibid.
(4). David E. Cooper, "Existentialism: A Reconstruction," 69.
(5). Ibid.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Kierkegaard

Any time Kierkegaard has been quoted in Cooper's book, I have been hit with what he says. I haven't read any of his writing before but I am anxious to get into it. Possibly it's because of the general saturation of Sartreean ideas, but even in Sophie's World, the chapter on Kierkegaard generated something in me that was new and surprising, and this was a very big factor in me taking the existentialism class.

"[A] public is...an abstract void which is everything and nothing...the most dangerous of powers...the public is also a gruesome abstraction through which the individual will receive his religious formation - or sink...More and more individuals, owing to their bloodless indolence, will aspire to be nothing at all - in order to become the public." - Kierkegaard, The Present Age, 63-4

"The 'aesthete' - whether in the shape of a dilettante, a Don Juan, or a busybody hopping from one activity to another - is a person 'sunk in immediacy.' He blows with the wind: follwoing the latest fashion, chasing the latest girl, or indulging in the latest pursuit to cure his boredom. His is a life of 'despair', not because he is buried in gloom, but because his life 'hinges upon a condition outside of itself'. Fasion, caprice, public opinion, external stimuli dictate the course of this life. The worst aspect of such an existence is that the person is dissolved into a 'multiplicity', and has lost 'the inmost and holiest thing of all in a person, the unifying power of personality'. So the person who fails to follow Kierkegaard's imperative, 'Be an individual!', through drifting with the prevailing breeze which blows from the 'public', also fails to follow it through the absence of a 'unifying power' in his life." - Cooper, Existentialism, 136

"That I can still experience guilt, however rigorously I obey the dictates of morality, means for Kierkegaard that there is a higher authority than the ethical - a God in comparison with whom I am bound to feel unworthy whatever I do." - Cooper, Existentialism, 145

"The Incarnation is an 'absolute paradox': but it is precisely a 'passion for paradox' that inspires, and is pre-supposed by, that 'leap of faith' which enables us to 'discover something that thought cannot think.' For Kierkegaard, indeed, 'proofs' of God's non-existence are more conducive to authentic faith than 'proofs' of His existence. These latter 'proofs' could anyway and at best establish the existence of what Pascal called the God of 'philosophers and scientists' - one 'abhorrent to Christianity' - not the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, the God of love and faith in whom we have our being." - Cooper, Existentialism, 147